My Acolyte Journey: 2014.21

Hideaway
Kiesza. The lyrics make me think of a kid with his older brother climbing a tree. This poor child trusts the brother implicitly and thinks that the higher they travel, the closer they'll be to God, to enlightenment, and further away from the pain of the lower world. There's a problem with my view of this song:

Uh, you send me the shiver and the spine might overflow/You're bringing me closer to the edge, I'm letting go

So.
This is a simple song about physical comfort or ecstasy ("You're just a hideaway, you're just a feeling") being an escape for the emotional or religious vacancy ("You let my heart escape beyond the meaning") left by not having the sort of connections that seem to bless other people ("Baby, I love the way that there's nothing sure"). Here's what I want to know: why do people assume that the emotional and physical high they feel will actually block out the yawning depths of their instability? Or at least, why do they act so? I can testify. When I was dating, there were times when I thought "If only I could get physically close to this person, perhaps the intoxicating feeling of seduction that runs electric between us can somehow . . . start the generator? Illuminate my dark interior? Pump the bilge. Short the starter. Charge the battery. Turn the engine. Fire the furnace.
Songs like this don't do anything to change the reputation of romantic love. We need a serious paradigm shift in the Western world. Sex isn't God. Love isn't God. Nothing on this earth will fix your holes.

But let's watch this video.
Holy wow. Second best video of the 40 so far. Stephen sent me a text earlier saying it was a "beautifully choreographed" video. Sure, yes. But it's more than that, frankly. This video doesn't quite match the feel of the music in places (when she gets atmospheric and says "ooh" and "ahh," the starkness of the video doesn't match the production of the music). This video doesn't quite live up to the impressiveness of some other notable one-take music videos. This video doesn't quite feel like the video I want to see from this song. But I ignore all that. I laughed a couple times. I couldn't tear my eyes away. The colors, distressed as they are, pull me in. The moves, though they don't quite climax with the song, are engaging, not distracting. And Kiesza holds my attention unless I drag myself away (I don't know if they only hired PoC dancers because they could only get them, or) because (at least partially) she's such a contrast.
I feel pumped about the song and happy for Kiesza. I can't explain both of those: this is not a "get turnt" song. It feels like I should already be turnt. And why should I care about Kiesza? But that's what I get from this song. I'm bumpin' and I like Kiesza. But as much as I like the song, I'm not compelled to buy it. I would have to listen to the rest of the album, and she doesn't promise me the sort of music I love.
I wouldn't buy this, and I hope Kiesza doesn't read that. (Why do I want to be friends with her?)