9.16b

Whether I write here or not is just fine. Whether you read it or not is just fine. Any outcome is meet and good, and all have either been preordained or completely unseen, and either way is indistinguishable, and both would come to an equivalent end. This is what is meant by zero.

I have not been sharing my deep self with you. That takes time, and time is valuable and valueless, and I also don't currently feel a burning need to share my deep self with anybody, to be honest. But of course I want to share my deep self with somebody. I just don't want to share it with anybody, partially because that involves the onerous act of sharing it, and also because I don't feel a need for anybody I know right now to have my deep self. And finally, I'm not sure I have a deep self currently, as I interact as authentically as I can with each person as I'm with them and then I don't feel the need to reach back to them when they're not with me. At the end, though I dislike this course of action, it, too, is zero. At some point, everyone I know will no longer count me among their friends, or they'll be dead and won't count anything. This is zero, and also zeroes out the value that may have been, positive or negative.

I hope you understand that I don't want to feel guilt about having not written you long letters and I don't want to feel guilt about having written or writing any in the future. I hope you understand that I don't need to feel satisfied about doing so or not doing so either. It merely is, and the value of either action is zero.

The value of pointing out that something is zero might be negative. I hope you don't dislike that I have pointed it out. But I suppose it is actually zero.

You understand, I think. The two of us are at least Buddhist enough to communicate that much to each other in the overlap of our vocabularies.

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I am concernet that if I told you a word was speled differently than how you had spelet it, you would take my word for it, even if I lied.

I would not lie. By spelling this sentence "correctly," I have told a small lie. Or perhaps not.

Both my concern and the value of your taking or not taking my word for it are zero. You are free to feel whatever you wish and that is meet and just. Whether I lie or not is zero. I will not, and that is nothing. It changes naught.

You asked what question I would ask god, or God, or deity, or numos? I would not need to, unless It existed as an entity to be asked. It does not, and thus I do not. What exists is all that exists, and that is just and meet. But if It existed as an entity to be asked, for the asking, and that was Its purpose and mine was to ask, I would want to know if I should reduce or increase entropy, though I would understand that any answer I received would be unknowable and both correct and incorrect. I suspect I should reduce entropy. I suspect it is the end of religious thought. I suspect it [It] is the most succinct way to explain my own religious thought.

All things will become zero. All things are zero. I will behave as though they are not so that perhaps, for that moment, in that place, they can be, and not zero. And the less zero there is, the more I am, and the more I am, the more there is space for God in it, and the more chances I have to see God. Maybe this is too esoteric and ephemeral, but I want to love others not because it is the right thing to do but because it affirms and repairs their existence as long as I do so, and in that is God. Destroying love or denying existence creates zero, and in that there is no space for God, at least, not the God that I have seen. But perhaps the absence of God and the presence of entropy are both one as meaningless as the other and the entire question is moot and the value proposition between the two is zero, but I have not nor will behave in such a way. I will reduce entropy and deny zero just as I will not lie. Why?

I do not know. It merely is, and this, too, is zero.