Dance in the Full Moon

Dance in the Full Moon

O, the Frailty of Memory

Monday, May 14, 2012

5.14

I like to think I'm just as suave as can be. I like to think I can say all the right things. I like to think I'm a ladykiller, but truth be told, you probably fell in love with me when I called at midnight and cried for an hour when my mother died.
That's not suave. That's not the right thing. That's not ladykiller, but it's genuine, and that's what you fell in love with.

5 comments:

  1. anelles47May 14, 2012 at 9:01 AM

    I don't know if this will make any sense, but I hate the idea of "suave" because it implies fakery. As a child, I spent most of my time pretending to be a spy, writing stories about being a spy, convincing all my playmates to want to be spies, too. I was completely captivated by the idea of pretending to be someone else so well that no one saw the real me.

    When I got older, I saw the necessity of doing so and hid myself under layers of false opinions and shallow emotions that people had to weed through in order to see the real me. I rarely if ever let anyone see anything deep in me. It protected me from a lot of heartache, to be honest. It was a defense mechanism, and I needed it badly.

    Now, I am wary of that attitude. Being suave with the ladies may help one get a girl, and it might even help one keep her, but the relationship will only ever be shallow, inadequate, and unfulfilling.

    I think I have now written more in response to what you said than you wrote. I'm sorry. It's something I've been thinking on for a long time. I guess it's my way of saying that I like what you've written.

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  2. Robby Van ArsdaleMay 14, 2012 at 10:42 AM

    I don't think that's quite what suave means. I'm pretty sure suave means being able to say what you mean the first time you try.
    For me, anyway.

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  3. anelles47May 14, 2012 at 8:10 PM

    Well, "smoothly though often superficially gracious and sophisticated."

    Hm.

    I think part of the beauty of not saying what you mean the first time is seeing who's willing to stay for the second attempt.

    This reminds me of the difference in the Kruegers. When I was in academy, I got music lessons from two brothers, one of whom we called "Sebastian" because he was a choir instructor who basically sang opera, and the other of whom we called "Scuttle" because he taught band and sang simpler music.

    I preferred Scuttle's singing voice and style because it was less refined and therefore sounded more genuine to me. I love a good opera, mind you, but I never quite believe it. I suppose that says more about me than anyone. I guess I'm just not a huge fan of the superficiality that most suave people have.

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  4. Robby Van ArsdaleMay 16, 2012 at 10:41 PM

    Ok. But I know that people can be as silky and smooth as butter without faking anything. They might be detestable for other reasons, but they are at the very least sincere.

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  5. anelles47May 18, 2012 at 7:35 PM

    Who can? I can think of people who are eloquent, I guess, but generally they aren't so much smooth as they are so passionate about what they say that they forget to be self-conscious.

    Or, you know, the result of study.

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