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[Consider this found poetry.]

We were guilty - w4m - 48 (Red Bank)

Date: 2012-08-22, 1:23PM EDT

I know you won't see this but that's ok at least I can get it off my chest. I miss you terribly and yes I guess we are both guilty of the same thing. I would be lieing if I said I regretted it because I don't. I'm trying really hard to get my life in order. When I do, and everything has straightened out, can I call you then? 
If you know who you are all you have to do is respond with where we were. I'll understand. 

The Pretenders - m4w (Where you left me)

Date: 2012-08-28, 11:14AM EDT

We didn't really love each other. We both know that. We pretended to just so we wouldn't feel so guilty. It was a game and we both played it well. We knew there would be no winners, and we both knew it would end bitterly. It was fun while it lasted though. There's no denying that.

We made each other feel good. We made each other happy. We each provided the other with a temporary escape from our little self made prisons. We knew it wouldn't and couldn't last. We each wanted so much more than the other could ever give. We knew the hurt was coming, but we also knew it was worth it.

You can't appreciate pleasure without knowing pain.

I know we didn't want to hurt each other, but we were reckless. We let ourselves get in too deep. We started resenting the fact that what we had was only a fantasy. The times we had together were always so rushed. When we would part company, the real world was waiting for us. I would look forward to seeing you again, but it was with mixed emotions. I wanted you and I needed you, but I hated myself for letting my feelings get all twisted up like that.

There was no way we could have done the things we did and not get emotionally involved. We were both starving for affection and intimacy. We both needed to be needed and to feel wanted. I just wish we hadn't hurt each other as much as we did. The damage is irreparable. I miss you and still think of you quite often. I hope your life is going well and that you are truly happy. I'm sorry that I hurt you. I know that we really didn't love each other, that we were just pretending, but it was close enough.

both guilty - w4w

Date: 2012-08-23, 12:36AM EDT

Might want to rethink saying yes when you have a wife and she knows that it's you posting on here. Or you better hope she keeps you. 

Re: Both Guilty - m4w

Date: 2012-08-22, 2:44PM EDT

Its a Yes and A Thank You with tears Running down my face, I won't bother you anymore 

[It's found poetry because I've taken the liberty of rearranging the timeline. If you want it unarranged, it goes one, four, three, two. Source. You're welcome, I think..]