Dance in the Full Moon

O, the Frailty of Memory

Saturday, December 31, 2011

1.1

Dwight Nelson was on the television, talking about the past. You can't go back. You can't go back. Everyone constantly tries to turn back the clock. I've taken years to discover it, says he. Did you know there's a name for this feeling? For that impulse, that fear of the past, that constant nagging at the back of your skull that you've done something wrong?
Regret, says I, young and scarred and full of self-righteous hurt.
Guilt, says he.
Two sides of the same coin, says I. But I know in my heart that I'm wrong. Regret is for what you haven't done. Guilt is for what you have. The only thing that ties them is that you do both to yourself.

Happy new year.
I resolve to be. I've finished that sentence a hundred different ways, but the best one is right there.
From me: don't regret.
From Dwight: don't guilt.
From God: forgive.
From 2012: if you've failed the above, here's a fresh chance. Good night everyone.

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