9.19b

"The heart of the matter, the real core, is the pain, really. Pain. It's what motivates the change; what throws the mind into . . ."

He droned on.
What was he to me? Where did he get off, talking about my pain?

"Really, the change motivated by pain is usually more lasting than a change motivated by pleasure. Think about a relationship: more people stay apart due to pain than stay together due to pleasure. It's quite clear . . ."

Undoubtedly, he had no idea what he was saying. Fantastic. My pain? My pain motivates no change. My pain motivates no difference.

[wrote this in class. I don't like it. I don't want to finish it. It doesn't speak. I would have to change a lot of things and write a lot of things to make it speak. Hate.]