"Good morning!" He was never one to let his morbid expectations ruin his chances.
She didn't even look at him. There was no one else around. He was loud. She was right there. She knew he was there and didn't even look at him. Was he human? Probably not.
It made him feel offal.
This is what I'm going through, for those of you who haven't heard my pitiful little rant. I can deal with everything else, but the fact that she's treating me like refuse/garbage/detritus/offal is just the worst feeling in the world. I mean, I spent a part of my life with her, and it's not like either of us screwed up. What's with the shun?
ReplyDeleteP.S. Sorry for the pun. :P pew pew ptuh yucky
P.P.S. Rory is from http://likelippincott.blogspot.com/2010/01/113.html
ReplyDeleteWhich is one of my better posts imho
RORY! I love Rory.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about that. That's hard.
If you really want an answer, I think there's something to this thing I am about to say. She might not know how you feel about talking to her. She might feel guilty or think that talking to you will make her feel guilty. She might be trying to keep things from getting more awkward than they already are. She might think that avoiding you is less likely to hurt you than talking to you would.
Maybe it's got less to do with what she thinks of you than it does what she thinks of herself. But seriously, I don't know.
I love puns. It is a weakness, I know, but . . . PUNS!
But the pun fit with what you were writing.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm sorry that that's what you're going through. And I sort of agree with Janelle, though I figure that you probably can't just ask her if that's the case because that would make it more awkward. Whether it's her trying to spare you or her trying to spite you, it seriously sucks. I can't empathize, but I can sympathize--and I do.
I remember that post. It was (is) a good one.
ReplyDeleteJanelle, you have a nice idea, but I'm quite sure that when someone avoids someone else, they do it for themselves, not the person they are avoiding. (At least, when I avoid people I do it out of my own selfishness, not for the other person's benefit.)
Of course, that doesn't explain why she's avoiding you, but I don't think any of us can do that. The only way to know is to ask her. (Which, of course, could make her angry or want to spite you, but it could also make her face up to this problem with which she obviously doesn't want to deal.) Asking her will be uncomfortable. It will be awkward and emotional. Anger will make an appearance. But asking is the only way to get closure.
(I know if Curtis and I broke up, I'd have to buck up and talk about it--because I am not willing to loose a friendship [and probably create some type of strain or friction on some other friendships] in order to avoid a few awkward moments.)
Perhaps she has her reasons. But Eve thought that she was doing the right thing by eating the apple.
ReplyDeleteDoing the wrong thing for the right reasons is always wrong. That's my ultimatum. For everything else (all conundrums and dilemmas) there is God.
And, Brooke: Yeah. She says that she's "not ready to talk." Ok. Bollocks.
ReplyDeleteSo, thanks, faithful support group, for supporting me. I will try to temper all of my previous comments.
She is a good person with problems. Now that the problems hurt me, I am having a hard time seeing the good person behind them.
We had a long, good relationship, and for some reason the breakup is being harder than it ought.
I pray for her.
I hope you pray for both of us, too.
So . . . not everything is brimstone and sulfur.
This will make no sense to anyone, but it sounds interesting: "Seeing the world in color is no fun at all."
ReplyDeleteIt doesn't help that you two go to the same school, and you do run into her occasionally. As I said the other day, I have never been close to my exes after a break up (one I've never even seen since), but I imagine it's hard. But, it does give opportunity for closure.
ReplyDeleteAnd, I think long, good relationships are some of the hardest to get over. I mean, if you get so used to being with someone, and then it all ends, you don't always know what to do with yourself because that relationship has been so much of who you are, you never really thought about how it would be afterwards. (At least, that's how I felt after my first relationship, even though I was glad when it ended.)
And I think it is good that you are trying to work it out--trying to have closure and make peace. That's a good thing. And I'm glad you're praying for her. I will too. I've been praying for you throughout this thing, but I forgot about her--I don't know why. She's my friend too. I've added her to my prayer list now (you know, that hit list I have on my wall).
Robby, you will get through this. Things will get worked out. This will end.
Thanks.
ReplyDeleteI hope so too.
I just hope she comes out better for it. I've hoped that since the beginning. Her life is too hard and she doesn't deserve more pain.
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ReplyDeleteI'll pray for you guys as well, though I don't know her.
ReplyDeleteI don't think it will end, but I hope with time you'll develop decent ways to deal with it.
ReplyDeleteJudging from what you've just said, you're already part of the way there.
I think.
believe me, she DOES know how robby feels about it. I TOLD her how he feels about it.
ReplyDeleteand believe me robby, I feel for you. it would suck immensely
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If she wants to know, she can ask me. I will not hurt her. So, thanks Kyle. And whatnot. And whatever. I'm so over this for now but I still thought you should be thanked.