I really didn't want to, but I guess choice has nothing to do with happiness. I'll feel the same if I do what I want or not. I stood up and scraped the blood from my chin. I mean, nobody ever wants to, do they? I mean, if they're mentally stable, anyway. I reached down and picked up my bag to throw it back over my shoulder. At least, I hope not.
I walked away from the other man who lay sprawled on the ground. Apparently after he headbutted me, we both passed out. I came to before he did. I guess that makes me the winner, but I wouldn't have put money on the outcome. But if I'm being completely honest with myself, I did want to. So, if choice has nothing to do with happiness, what is the probability that I will feel happy about this?
My head ached like it was tearing a bit just around the edges. I tried to feel unlucky, but I couldn't. I had gotten myself into this situation on purpose, just to see if I could possibly get myself in a chancy situation. I guess Luck is affected by intent, just like happiness. If you're trying too hard, you can't be happy or lucky.
I walked down the street and headed for the next bar. I stuck my head in and yelled. Two men stood up when I yelled and walked toward me.
I smiled and ducked back into the street and waited for them. Maybe this time. Maybe this time.
"I guess choice has nothing to do with happiness."
ReplyDeleteI disagree with that, at least to a point.
"If you're trying too hard, you can't be happy or lucky."
I agree with that.
So let me get this straight: Because he got pulled into a fight he didn't want to be part of, he's going from bar to bar yelling at people and then fighting whoever takes up the challenge like a modern, blue Green Knight? Hmm.
I like this. Especially the ending, LOVE the ending. Superb. (It's been a while since I used that word.)
ReplyDelete"But if I'm being completely honest with myself, I did want to. So, if choice has nothing to do with happiness, what is the probability that I will feel happy about this?"
ReplyDeleteHe didn't get pulled into a fight he didn't want to.
And thanks, Kyle.
I'm really liking the path this character is taking, but I dislike how he's taking it and I'm not enjoying writing it. I have no idea why. If you guys told me to stop, I would probably keep writing, though! I don't know! This guy is just . . . too much fun to write about.
ReplyDeleteLol there are so many parallels there!
ReplyDeleteHmm . . . he wants to fight, then, but he thinks he shouldn't?
This is truly an interesting character. Please keep writing him if you want to. But also Sherlock sometime? :-) We never got the rest of the mystery.
This guy has some serious unresolved childhood issues.
ReplyDeleteI like him. :)
I also think the ending was brilliant.
Thanks.
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